luke called things off between us because he was scared. he was scared i was going to hurt him and that he’d slip back into depression and not graduate from his final year. it sucks and it hurts but i’m not mad at him, because i get it.

we went very quickly and fell very hard. it sucks. i hate it. i hate this.

my bf left and i was sad so i bought the biggest pizza i could possibly find to cheer myself up and it isn’t working

this is not okay

i have a pretty cool job in the creative heart of the city and i have a boy who i could quite possibly be falling in love with and i have all of these exciting trips planned but i find myself working all the time or travelling to/from work and dreading work and i hate that my life is currently centered around work

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luke is staying over on saturday and i am actually terrified but also very excited

idk this is my first real relationship with a guy

that’s like

terrifying

I wish I felt good enough

I wish I didn’t feel like this

i haven’t really had all that much time to spend on my computer recently, which is bother a blessing and a curse.

i got that new job that i really wanted. it’s in a media and pr field, in the ‘trendy’ and young part of the city and is double the money than what i’m currently getting.

i also met this guy named luke who is everything i’ve ever needed from a 'significant other’ or whatever you want to call it. things are pretty serious and i’m really fucking happy with him. 

idk. things are nice.

my weight makes me feel like i don’t deserve to be loved and it’s the saddest fucking thing ever